feast fit for a king

It's the football grand final here, that means plenty of get togethers, catch up loads of drinking all gathered around the tv to watch the game... we are heading to my cousins house. On the menu so far.. sausage rolls, jelly lollies, chips, drinks,twiggy sticks, cheese. My cousin has some doughnuts and is making a butter cake.. a feast fit for a king not just the four of us! I don't watch footy that much but I am going for stkilda today. I do so hope they win as they haven't won a grand final since 1966.

We are just about to leave now... so I best be off...

cheers.

Welpers the game was a nail biter and in the end, a draw. So they have to come back and play it next week. I was miffed, like most people, can't believe it.

pear shaped

So the fog has lifted from over me, i'm still a little down. I should be happy.. swimming along..... I have downed my paint brushes for the day and donned my cooks hat. I have a distinct feeling that the lot beautiful ingredients I have on the stove is going literally pear shaped. Its a chutney, pear chutney at that. I used the right amount and its been on the stove for just over an hour, I have this irksome feeling that it needs two hours, as I checked some other recipes that have that amount needs not 1 but yes 2. So ive got the timer on for every 15 minutes so I can check and taste it. So far.. it needs some more lemon zest perhaps. I cannot be bothered making the quiche for dinner so think it will be blt's.

falling down

Im in a very emotional state this morning, my heart feels heavy, my tears are streaming down my cheek, i just put one of the most beautiful songs on and cant help but be sad. I was once told by a friend that I am the queen of hearts...I was once told that this guy would grow a blue rose for me, I was once told that I was beautiful.

I don't see any of that anymore. I changed into a selfish cold hearted woman. Who always wanted to be alone, no I am, I'm not so sure loneliness is a friend, for a time being it about 8 years going on now.. I have not made any new friends, Im socially awkward, i stutter a lot... so I got my wish then didn't I? (so now i am mantled to the cold of life)

I have no inner compass, i feel like i'm down a well... so that is what i am beating myself up over this morning. I have to go grocery shopping, Im going to fill my day. Ive got to stop.

fare thee well for now

dream

So i slept last night... i woke up just past midnight. Went back to sleep I had this dream, i was walking through a park with a friend, allt hese beautiful coloured birds were chirping around us, losing their feathers and we were catching them in our hands all I can remember is that she said "ur art is mundane" and i said " I lost my beauty about 7 years ago now" birds chirped all around us some more and I woke up. It was a message from afar. So i woke up at 7amish to a flooded kitchen floor, the taps leek had intensified over night from a drip to streaming puddle.The plumber came, fixed it all.. im sure a relatively large bill will be mailed to us soonish.

I have been a lil down today.. though I have many things I should be doing. Upon reading this book where there are a few passages about love that remind me of my own brief brushes with it, yes i'll admit I did know love but now it is a stranger to me. I know it not. I know not a lot perhaps it's time to learn and challenge myself.

Well I will write more later mush dash alligator
"nobody sees how our hearts break"

outskies

Monday rocked around and I headed to the city to meet up with a few friends that I have not seen well one in over a year and now they have a lil tacker... the other in over two years. The train was packed on the way there it being school holidays and the melbourne show and all that jazz.

Sat at Max Brennas qv centre, having morning coffee, i made lil goody bags for them both. The cupcakes I made are a tad dry nothing I could do.. at least the icing was delicious. It was a lovely day the sun came out... made walking around in suede shoes a lil warm for me. Ergh oh well.

Then went to go for lunch, ended up having the lunch place closed on mondays... grrrrr... oh well... next time I guess. So ended up at the shaghai noodle and dumpling house.. unfort. the food was not that great there this time round. *sighs* After that walked around looking at stores and slowly walking up to southern cross, chatting as we went.

Came home on the 3:20pm train... teenagers across from me have so many piercings, i don't know how they can have that many. It's insane. I just read my book and listened to my music, whilst mum slept.

I have stated painting again over the past few days, its great. Ive been painting the owls, trees and some abstract pieces, in well I have this beautiful magenta colour so i've used shades of that. I have not really cooked this week been a bit lazy, meat and three veg. Might make a quiche tomorrow though.. have all the ingredients.

Well mum is cooking dinner tonight.. im a lucky ducky..

cheers

albell

mint

I made creme de menth cup cakes today... i think they are just chocolate mud.. not that sweet, made some crem de menthe icing to go with them and half a little after dinner mint to go on top. I am waiting for them to cool down.

Ive been up since 8 ish but have not done much.. a few puzzles here and there, a bit of washing. Im a little steady today. Ive been listening to tea party. Im looking at cafes to have lunch at with angiebear and rony.

Welpers. I will get back to puzzles now
ciao

moulin rouge

Was watching the abc and the titles came at me.. the original moulin rouge. I had only ever seen baz lurmans version......but with this one , I started I was swept away with the script, words, music and its beauty. A really well scripted film an absolute classic. The film was heart breaking and I felt some of the quotes are relevant to me. Especially the heart breaking loneliness that was brilliantly displayed. The beautiful subject of love and dark days finding beauty.

So it took up the afternoon. This morning I wrote a few letters, had some toast and went and bought 3 tops one is for home and painting in the other is white and the other is a throwover. So I guess the day went fairly fast. Im going to make some curd later too.

So i have the choice of 3 varying meals for dinner risotto, goulash or bake beans. Think im leaning towards risotto somehow. Welpers, write more later alligator